I gained 20 kilos due to treatment, but Iām also exercising, so I can say my body stayed in shape. Because Iām tall, people around me generally say that it doesnāt show, but Iām internally disturbed. Normally going from size 38 to size 42 affects me psychologically. Do you think I should accept myself this way, or should I start trying harder?
I think itās an important detail that the people around you say āit doesnāt show at all.ā The weight gain from the treatment comes from a different process than metabolism. Just like if you continue to exercise, you can maintain that shape, I had gained 15 kilos at one point due to hormone therapy, but since Iām tall, no one noticed. Donāt be too hard on yourself.
My daughter, your situation is very similar to that of my auntās daughter, who is the same age as you. She also went through a difficult treatment process. At first, she was uncomfortable, but she gave herself time. Along with exercise, having a positive attitude is important too. I think you should consider coming to terms with your weight while taking care of your health; thereās no need for drastic measures.
I think you need to take a look at your own situation a bit. You say youāre exercising, but if āgaining size 42ā bothers you this much, maybe youāre not fully focused. Donāt let your surroundings saying āitās not obvious at allā confuse you; after all, youāre the one looking in the mirror. If you want proper results, either get serious about it or give up on wanting to change.
I find it very right for you to exercise, but the weight issues caused by treatment should be looked at a little more professionally. If itās related to hormonal or metabolic changes, it may be necessary to create a balance not just with exercise but also with a dietitian. This way, you can keep your weight under control and reduce mental strain.
Let me also say that going from a size 38 to 42 doesnāt look that bad, but not being able to wear my old clothes affects me more. I also worry a bit because it feels like people around me might say things like āwhat happened to that girl?ā Right now, Iām trying not to gain more weight, but Iām not sure if itās enough.
Look at this clothing issue. Even if nobody in the neighborhood or around you notices, you stress about it because youāre aware of it. We always had pressures like āa girl has to be thin,ā but these things just hurt a person. Do you value your happiness more now, or what others say? The decision will come from here.